Ahhh, tonight. TONIGHT! As I peruse social media and look at all kinds of things, I see pictures of kiddos of all ages and stages. My mind wanders. I’m reminded of each of my children at different times in their lives. As this is my very first blog post and I’m just beginning to write, it will be rather short. However, let me tell you… I am a mom and I love my four children dearly. I have made mistakes in this life that have cost me dearly as well. I’m hoping that my writing and sharing my heart unabashedly will save some of you from the same mistakes I’ve made; and also the same heartaches.
My children have been my life since I was 20 and found out I was pregnant with my Sydney Caroline – my firstborn angel. I’m now 42, so more than half of my life now. I’m lying here in bed waiting for her to arrive safely home tonight, since she lives with me full time. Man, have we needed this time, too. My firstborn – she is a doll. God blessed me beyond anything I ever thought I would receive when he made me HER mom. She is something to behold. She is beautiful, both inside and out. Smart. Creative. Innocent. Radiant. She is a princess. MY princess. One day I know her prince will arrive, until then I will be thankful for the time I have with her right now. I’m learning everyday from my daughter all over again. I was her age when she was born. And I’m just as enthralled with her now as I was then.
Parents, don’t ever choose a mate over your kids. They are NEVER worth it. I made that mistake. And I fully regret it. I’m learning to forgive myself. My children are learning to forgive me, too. It’s a very tough and rough thing when you realize you’ve been a bad example for your children. It’s also humbling. However, in the mistakes come learning opportunities for all involved. I’ll write more about that tomorrow. For now, just now Sydney and I have learned how to forgive, love and enjoy the ever so treasured mother/daughter relationship.
I’m one very thankful mother. Now to repair the relationship with the other three children who equally deserve the same….
–M
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